Tigger warning: nightmare involving rape

This was a nightmare I had, it didn’t really happen, but I woke up terrified. This was the first nightmare I had in a long time. I used to have them all the time.

Nightmare From Night of January 18, 1994

I was only 14 at the time I was walking from the nursing home to my moms working place. It was very cold, but it didn’t bother me until I passed this house and a uniform police officer came out and asked me if I wanted to a ride or not and I said “no”. Then he said “it’s too cold to walk and that he’ll drive me” and I said that if he even tried to get me in his car I would run and before I knew it he had his hand on my shoulders and I almost screamed he put his hand over my mouth and asked why I was so scared and said “I’m in uniform you know I’m a police officer. I won’t hurt you.” And I got sick and said “ever think that’s the problem I don’t know if you would hurt me. I’ve had a lot of negative things happen from you kind of people. And I’m not taking the chance of another.” That’s when I took a run for it and he got into his car and cut me off and I almost hit him, but instead I hit a tree and hurt my hand really bad. I explain to him about KC and how the police officer blamed him. And he said that I was getting arrested because you only run if there’s something to hide so he put handcuffs on me and called it in that he had a girl with him that ran when he came up to him and that he would be up there after he picked up his ride. He was driving and he made me sit right by him for they weren’t supposed to let prisoners by a door and then I tried to get out and I couldn’t that’s when I got even more scared and he said “oh yeah my doors broke now get over here” and then he started putting his hands on my knees and I started crying and saying “please don’t make this be like my second time I met up with one of you” and then he asked about it and I refused to talk about it and I knew he was going to hit me but he never did. I waited with my eyes shut and he put his arms around me and said “it’s OK I’m not going to hurt you” and I was crying. He put my head on his shoulders and said “everything‘s gonna be alright”. Then we got to the other police officer’s house and he said “just stay out here with her so I can go to the restroom”. The police officer (who looked like the person from when I was in the 4th grade and had sexually assaulted me) looked at me and said “You bet”. And he whispered to me saying “I’ll just have some fun with you again.” Then he had a gun in my face and saying pull down your pants and I refuse so he did the honors and raped me. I screamed because of the pain and he hit me with his gun and told me to shut up. It was five minutes later before Mikey came out and by then Jeff was almost raping me from behind like when I was 9 and I was crying so loud when Mikey got into the car. He told the other officer to leave me alone and for me to put back on my clothes. All this time I was crying and the officer yelled “why don’t you shut up you little slut” and I started shivering and Mikey said “set up and sit in the middle” and I tried to get him to let me sit in the back and then I said “but you’re a police officer and you’ll probably take his side if I did try to press charges”. Mikey said “that’s where you’re wrong little one”. And he told me to look in his eyes. I did for a second and turned away when the other officer looked at me and yelled “do as he says slut”. Mikey told the officer not to call me that ever again and that he was in a lot of trouble then the one officer put his hand down my blouse and I screamed asking Mikey for help and he told him to get in the back and for me to stay where I was then he hit me and my nose started bleeding and I started crying and got down on the floor board and Mikey kept saying “get up here it’s going to be OK” and I just shivered then Mikey stopped the car and went over to my side and pulled me out of the car and I was still shaking and crying when the officer said, “you’ll die before you get all the papers filled out” and I looked up at Mikey and he said “don’t worry I’ll keep you safe”. I was still in a lot of pain from where he entered. (Understand). We walked in the police station and of course the officer denied all I said, but I had Mikey on my side. He was also my personal bodyguard from then to the time the officer got 3 years in prison for raping me. I lived at his house and Anna and I became friends again. I lived with him for 2 years and he became a second dad and when I went home he and I kept in touch forever.