Anyway last night was fun being with Anna again like we were so many times before, but then it always backfires, on me anybody that knows me, knows I always mess up. I could say what I did wrong, but I know this time it wasn’t me. I’ll explain.
After school we drove down by Mikey’s, where he works, and the police station. I got Anna home at 3:30 and went back by his work and I turned around a couple times before he came and he waved, smiled and winked. So I turned around again and he was walking towards the house, turned around and went back to the car and I told him to go to the library. He said “well OK” so I left and went to the library. He finally got there at 4 PM and didn’t stay but for maybe five minutes he had to go to the doctors and get ready for work. So he left and I saw him get out of his car and he smiled at me.
I went around the block and followed one of the teachers. met up with a cop, and followed it. Went to Anna‘s, left her house at 5 PM went by the station, went to Walmart went by his house and he was gone, went back by the station saying “where’s kiddy’s car” so we went to McDonald’s and Anna asked if that was his car and it was of course I had a cow and went by he waved and smiled I had another cow and decided to stop before he realized I was having a cow so we parked went up to the doors then went back to the car and he came and parked by my car we talked for a little while and I gave him his cherries and we had made plans to meet after the Game 830 to 9 at the library I reminded him and he told me he wouldn’t forget. He told us that he had to go back to the station and eat this. When he was leaving Anna said “Yuck nasty balls”. Mikey said “not if you suck on them right”. I laughed and Anna kept asking what he said. It took us 30 minutes to get our stuff and went back by the station to see where he parked.
Backflash — before I went to Anna‘s I had my radio on as far as it could go and Mikey was going to his car so he looked up and laughed and I turned down my radio. I went around the block and followed him for a little while. We finally made it to the game. We were so hyper, another teacher thought so too. We talked about our boyfriends and future plans. She knew I was going to be a teacher and ask about it. We also talked about my driving and how we were meeting up with my boyfriend afterwards. Dennis bought me a candy bar and Diane, the police woman, gave me $.50. She also said sorry. Not sure why! Overall it was great we got to leave at 8 PM. And we went by the station and he was at the window so we cut through the alley. And met up with him. Anna asked who was dispatching and if Terry was working and he said no. She told him about Scott working and leaving the note. I told him about the snow and he said “it was pretty bad this morning”. I told him I didn’t think so. Then he said “well, I did”. His voice changed like he was getting mad, but then he was back to normal. And I told him where to go and he said “I’m going through the drive-in and getting me a soda first”. We said “well then we’ll go to the gas station and meet you over there”. He said “OK”.
He showed me and Anna the box of cherries and Anna said “I don’t want any but I have one though.” He said, “Are you going to give it to me?”. Anna said “I don’t think so” and started rolling up her window and his hand stopped it. She screamed and he was grabbing her shoulder, then he left. I was so nervous.
We followed him to where he was going and at the lights I acted like I wasn’t going to stop. He waved at us from the car and I smiled. When we went to the city park. He wasn’t there. We waited and then drove out by where he had gone, then went back and some truck was there then went to his house and he was there. I was so mad I think I could have hit a wall if there was one there. We parked in the parking lot and spied on him then we left and went by his house.
I was almost in tears. I had told Anna how I got jealous of people and she said she understood and I also told her to tell him to start touching me more, but after this I told her to let it ride for a little while. Then we had the radio blasting and went driving around.
Anna said to honk the horn, but I wouldn’t. I also bought a condom and thought about throwing it at his car. When we were driving a cop passed us we had the radio blasting but we weren’t speeding. He turned and we turned around and went down the dead end and met him. I had been mad and wouldn’t back up so he finally did and I went he went and we met at the highway we followed him part of the time. I was mad at the police too. I was saying that Mikey probably called them to go out there, but now that I think about it he wouldn’t do that. Of course I never thought he would stand me up either. He better have a good explanation. I had my first time of being stood up. See I told Mikey he would give me a lot of first. I just thought he would give me the positives not the negatives. I love him, I guess that’s why it hurts so much when he didn’t come. Anna said “maybe he’s just changing clothes”. He knew his daughter was going to be home so he shouldn’t have even went home.
06/26/2021 — What I would love to say to Mikey after reading this, I wouldn’t be able to censor enough to write it on here. When I read the part where Mikey showed us the box of cherries and kept touching Anna, I got nervous all over again. He was forcing himself on to her through the window and that was not cool. I also don’t like the way he said “not if you suck on them right”. He should have never been talking to us that way and any good 45 year old police officer wouldn’t have. Mikey had done so many things I wish I had paid attention to back then the red flags were all over the place if I had just listened and paid attention to them. Mikey had made us nervous with how he talked to us and grabbed us so many times, yet I thought he was just joking around because “he cared about me.” I wish the adults around us would have paid more attention, too. They could have stopped a lot of things from happening if they had just paid attention. There were so many police officers (his co-workers) who saw how he acted around us, you can’t tell me that if my classmates were noticing it that these grown ups didn’t. I do believe that the other police officers knew something wasn’t right, but they might not have known how bad it had gotten. I just wish there was no such thing as the blue wall of silence which happens way too often in Small Town, USA.
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