January 2, 1994

— (I turned 17 on December 27th) —

I have misplaced page 128 to 188 of the journal. I will add them if and when I find them. Needless to say, I have moved 10 times since leaving my hometown, so I’m not sure if they got lost or just misplaced. I figured out that this was from January 2, 1994 due to a letter I had written him that had the dates of each poem I had written about him.

Just hold me

We’ll love the night away

not just anybody will due

It has to be that special someone who knew how to conquer making me happy again

Just hold me

Our love will last, because it’s still goin’ strong

It has to be that special someone

Who knows what to say at the right time

Dedicated to: Mikey

My one and only as of 11/20/93 to forever

My Grandma is still in the hospital and the infection is going to the heart, they found out what it was. It was from the surgery. I hope she gets better. I found out that my Uncle Ed went into the hospital (I assume Mississippi) he has pneumonia and almost died this morning. He had to be taken in by ambulance. It’s so scary. I don’t want to go through anymore, Luckily I have Mikey, who helps me through it all.